Circles and Circles

I am mostly writing this because I need to vent and I don’t think it’s proper to Facebook vent about this, so I will write it here and THEN link it to my Facebook! (Classy I know…)

I feel like I am going in circles and circles with certain people in my life and it’s starting to frustrate me. I feel taken advantage of on a regular basis yet I still continue to be nice and do everything for certain people! I know it’s a personal problem but how do I stop myself from being kind and open!?

I’ve done numerous things for specific individuals and get hardly any thanks in return, if any at all…. Like I said before, maybe it’s me and I just need to learn how to step back and say “Hey… I’m not going to do this anymore..”

We’ve all been there, caring for someone when they didn’t care the same way for us… doing nice things… stepping out on a limb…. WISHING AND HOPING that maybe a realization would set in that you are just wasting your time… OR maybe a positive note like THEY realize they shouldn’t take for granted what is right in front of them!!

After saying all this… it’s safe to say younger guys are frustrating and mildly selfish… (in my opinion… so don’t yell at me for assuming they are all the same) and this is why I’ve always told my mom I will end up with someone at LEAST 5 years older than me! Preferably 10! I’m real and I’m serious… I have a lot of love to give but have obviously been wasting it! I need to change that!

It’s hard to slow down and realize that you won’t be good enough for the person you were hoping to be good enough for! And I guess that is where it ends… you have to move on and keep smiling and be HAPPY and thankful for this life!

I need some coffee, and some zen, and some me time, and a little less caring about people who don’t care about me!!

(apologies for terrible grammar and a lot of “and’s”

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