Circles and Circles

I am mostly writing this because I need to vent and I don’t think it’s proper to Facebook vent about this, so I will write it here and THEN link it to my Facebook! (Classy I know…)

I feel like I am going in circles and circles with certain people in my life and it’s starting to frustrate me. I feel taken advantage of on a regular basis yet I still continue to be nice and do everything for certain people! I know it’s a personal problem but how do I stop myself from being kind and open!?

I’ve done numerous things for specific individuals and get hardly any thanks in return, if any at all…. Like I said before, maybe it’s me and I just need to learn how to step back and say “Hey… I’m not going to do this anymore..”

We’ve all been there, caring for someone when they didn’t care the same way for us… doing nice things… stepping out on a limb…. WISHING AND HOPING that maybe a realization would set in that you are just wasting your time… OR maybe a positive note like THEY realize they shouldn’t take for granted what is right in front of them!!

After saying all this… it’s safe to say younger guys are frustrating and mildly selfish… (in my opinion… so don’t yell at me for assuming they are all the same) and this is why I’ve always told my mom I will end up with someone at LEAST 5 years older than me! Preferably 10! I’m real and I’m serious… I have a lot of love to give but have obviously been wasting it! I need to change that!

It’s hard to slow down and realize that you won’t be good enough for the person you were hoping to be good enough for! And I guess that is where it ends… you have to move on and keep smiling and be HAPPY and thankful for this life!

I need some coffee, and some zen, and some me time, and a little less caring about people who don’t care about me!!

(apologies for terrible grammar and a lot of “and’s”

7 Makeup “Must-haves”!

I am a huge fan of makeup, messing around with different products and trying new styles! This post serves the purpose of letting you know what products I can’t live without! I love makeup because it’s fun, I do it for me. not anyone else! Maybe makeup isn’t your thing (I used to think that) but if you try new things you might actually realize you enjoy them! (Maybe it will even inspire you to pick them up at your local beauty store and try them yourself!)

Eyes
— Eyeliner is my best friend and truly a must have for me!

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1. My all-time favorite eyeliner is the Perfect Point Plus Eyeliner by Covergirl in Black Onyx 200. This is an easy glide on liner that comes with built in sharpener and smudge tool. If you purchase at Walmart or Target you will probably pay around $5-6 but if you purchase from a bulk store such as COSTCO you can get a 3 pack for $9.99 (that is a S-T-E-A-L).

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2. The other liner I have recently purchased to test out is Eye Studio Lasting Drama Gel Eyeliner by Maybelline in Blackest Black. It is in a glass pot and comes with a small eyeliner brush applicator. I was skeptical about this product at first but after a little practice of applying with a brush, I came to the realization that I love it and I will definitely be purchasing it again! It averages about $7-8. (I just opened it but it looks like it’s going to last quite a long time!)

–Eyeshadow

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3. I am a loyal Urban Decay fan so the Naked Palette is definitely my favorite set of shadows! The earthy tones are perfect for me and I enjoy using this palette to test and try out new looks especially the smokey eye! The colors are perfect if you like neutral and natural colors! Though this is a spendy purchase (around $50 at Sephora) it’s worth it!

Lips
–Lipstick (Every girls needs a little bit of red lipstick!)

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4. My pride and joy of red lipsticks is Infra-Red by Maybelline. It’s the prefect color of red and adds class to any outfit! It’s a good quality and the color is long lasting so you’re not always having to reapply! This lipstick retails for about $5 at stores such as Target, Walmart, Rite Aid, etc.

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5. My favorite sheer nude lipstick is by NARS cosmetics and it’s called Belle de Jour. My favorite things about NARS lip products is that they are filled with ingredients that prove to nourish your lips and keep them conditioned and soft. This lipstick sells for $26 on their website and it’s long lasting color will make your nude lips looking and feeling fabulous!

–Lip-gloss

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6. The gloss I find absolutely irresistible and perfect for topping any lipstick to give it a shine is the Dior Addict Collagen Active Lip-Gloss. I have it in a light pink shade (001). It’s pretty expensive for a lip-gloss but I’ve had mine over and year and it’s just about halfway gone (and I use it everyday!).

Face–Blush

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7. Coralista blush box by benefit cosmetics. This is a coral shade, with the perfect amount of pigment! It goes on smooth and lightens up your face in all the right places! (Also try Georgia Peach). Available at Sephora and Ulta stores and online.

I hope you try some of these products and fall in love with them like I did! IN this century it’s easy as 1-2-3, surf the internet for any of these products and you’ll be sure to find them! Happy “make-up”ing!

Audrey Hepburn – The Epitome of All That is Lovely

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Cover of Breakfast at Tiffany’s

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Audrey Hepburn
She lived a glamorous life on set as “Holly Golightly” in Breakfast At Tiffany’s, as an escaped princess in Roman Holiday, and as the illiterate “Eliza Doolittle” in My Fair Lady. Audrey Hepburn. Ah, it’s so nice to say, almost like a breath of fresh air after a mid-afternoon rain. Though I’m only mentioning a few of Hepburn’s roles in the Hollywood studio (and maybe it’s a biased selection, can’t help that those are my favorite!) she spent her life spreading her love and talent not only in the film industry but worldwide!

Epitome: e·pit·o·me: A representative or perfect example of a class or type.

Audrey embodied what it meant to be lovely, successful, sophisticated, and caring. She is my idol for many reasons including her dedication to do what she loved, her love for helping others (specifically children in 3rd world countries via UNICEF), and the way she carried herself publicly and privately. I admire her for her extreme talent and courage in an industry which is very competitive, even in the 1940s-1960s! Her beauty put the other women to shame and that is exactly what producers are agents were looking for: beauty, talent, and that small essence of innocence that she unknowingly carried with her.

I hope to someday inspire others like Audrey seemed to do so effortlessly. I may not inspire them with beauty or star in Hollywood films… but I can inspire nonetheless. Audrey didn’t care about material things, she cared about delivering a good performance that made the world want more, and she cared about helping others.

She dedicated a large portion of her life to being personally involved with UNICEF and helping underprivileged children in 3rd world countries. She was by no means a selfish woman and she continued to spread her love wherever she went. She lived a full life and went to be with God on January 20, 1993 after a long battle with cancer. She is a woman who will undoubtedly be admired for years and years to come, and she will forever remain in my heart and be my idol.

Relationship Race

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You Can’t Hurry Love (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

 

“You can’t hurry love, no you just have to wait, she said ‘love don’t come easy, it’s a game of give and take.'”

Relationships come and go, people change, people move on, and the world continues to rotate. But there comes that one relationship, where things just stick, happiness is found, and you just know it’s right. Etta James “At last, my love has come along, my lonely days are over and my life is like a song…”

I was raised in a very small town, where everyone knows everyone, and absolutely nothing can be kept personal. A small graduating class of about 65 led to many close relationships, and many marriages soon after high school was put behind us. I’m 20 and I have friends MARRIED! WITH KIDS! What?!

It’s crazy to think about… life doesn’t slow down for anyone. You can plead, cry, or just celebrate, but life doesn’t take orders from anyone. Its motto is to just keep chugging along, picking some up on the way, and dropping others off as well. Some eager to grow up and some just wanting to be young again; some just caught in the middle trying to find purpose.

No one ever told us to race to the finish line, to be the first to get married, the first to fall in love, the first to have a child, the first to succeed. So why do I still feel like it’s all just a game? A game to see who can accomplish the most in the smallest amount of time? Maybe I am not the typical “thinker” but I just sit from the sidelines watching the race go on around me… I am a spectator, among many others I am sure, just trying to find their purpose.

I’m slowly and patiently awaiting my purpose, where I am supposed to be, who I am supposed to meet, and who I am supposed to spend my life with. No race here. Maybe I have an idea of “who” that should be next to me, maybe I daydream about the future. No harm done. I’ve always been in love with the idea of being “in love,” and I will continue to be in love with that idea. I’ve set standards for myself to know when it feels right, when I should let someone into my personal life. You’ll have that feeling, a feeling that you never want to lose, and that my friends, is when you hold on tight and never let go. Until then, wait it out, time heals everything in the end, and let yourself experience beautiful things along the way! You are the master of your own fate and the captain of your soul.

What are you searching for? Waiting for?

What I learned from “The Great Gatsby”

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At some point in your life, you were probably forced to read The Great Gatsby in high school or college, and while you may have thought it was a waste of time to read because you may not enjoy reading, it had some good lessons to learn from. What F. Scott Fitzgerald’s 1925 novel, The Great Gatsby taught me:

1. You can’t repeat the past.
“Can’t repeat the past? Why of course you can!”
No matter what Jay Gatsby may think, you cannot repeat the past. While he was a firm believer in being able to repeat the past in order to change decisions and circumstances that took place, it wasn’t a realistic outlook. Though you cannot repeat and change the past, you can essentially start over and leave the past in a trail of dust behind you.

2. Money is a disguise.
Many elaborate parties, excess amounts of alcohol, classy dinners, shimmering dresses, bright cars, large houses… the list goes on. While money may resemble happiness on the outside, it’s a mask for what’s really hiding on the inside.
-Jay Gatsby can throw as many parties as he wants and put on a sophisticated smile, but Daisy is not there… he is not happy.
-Daisy has more than most young wives yet she is absolutely miserable.

3. You cannot hide the details of your personal life from others forever.
Sugar-coated on the outside, dark on the inside… everybody has their secrets. Daisy’s husband is having an affair with a lower class woman, Nick Carraway is becoming an alcoholic, Jay Gatsby is running an interesting operation in his free time and tends to have anger issues deep down.

4. Your lies will often lead you to be alone.
Twisting the truth to sound better, richer, and more intelligent may sound nice in the moment but the repercussions may not be as nice. Gatsby elaborated a lot of his life story to impress the crowd and in the end, he was found out. When Gatsby died… he was left alone, no one came to visit him and this has a lot to do with the media thinking he had done criminal acts but also because of the lies he became tangled in throughout his lifetime.

In retrospect, The Great Gatsby is an enchanting, yet tragic tale of love, heartbreak, young money, and social upheaval during the roaring twenties. While it all sounds so beautiful and fun, like any story there are obstacles everyone must attempt to get around.
The past is the past.
Money does not bring happiness.
You can’t hide your secrets forever.
Lies unfortunately equal loneliness.

Life is a beautiful struggle, old sport.
“So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.”

Steps to Becoming a Happier Person

Happiness is a choice

Often times we go through life, shifting through the motions but feeling like there is something missing: our happiness. Someone once told me, “Avery, happiness is a choice,” in which I laughed and went on with my usual business. I had always been in the mindset that my happiness was out of my control and that in order for my happiness to be at an all time high in my life, good things needed to happen. Bad things happen to bad people, bad things happen to good people; bad things happen. Of course, I thought if bad things happened, there is no way happiness could survive and thrive in such a tragic place. I can openly admit that I was very wrong.

What I’ve learned in my life so far is that I can control my happiness, and make the best out of even the most terrible situations. As an individual, I am able to surround myself with people, places, and objects that are going to make me feel and act better. Happiness is a very important aspect in our lives and the relationships that we form. I now look back on the advice I was given, and I do believe happiness is a choice. It may be a hard one to make at times, but it is the most rewarding in the long run.

So, if happiness is a choice, you may be wondering what actions you should take in order to bring your happiness to an all time high.

1. Choose to be happy.
This is the most important step! You must take the initial step to being a happier person and that is making the choice to be happy. It is not true that you are stuck in a spot of happiness in which you are not able to move. It is possible to boost your emotions and feel better!

2. Learn forgiveness.
There is nothing worse than holding a grudge and continuing to water the deep seed of bitterness that you have planted in your heart. In order to achieve ultimate happiness, you must let go of any anger and bitterness you have been holding on to. This is an opportunity to break the chains and it can ultimately be a very freeing experience if you let it.

3. Neutralize negativity.
By minimizing the negative thoughts in your life you can lead a happier life. Your thoughts are what control your behavior in life, and when they are all negative, you are bound to be unhappy in everything you do. When choosing positive thoughts and actions, happiness is right around the corner.

4. Build relationships.
By building positive relationships in your life, you can achieve the happiness you’ve always wanted. Whether these are friendships, work relationships, or romantic relationships, surrounding yourself with positive people in your life will be very rewarding.

In retrospect, happiness has always been a choice and by following some guidelines you can significantly improve your life! It all depends on the motivation you hold and the power of positive thinking!